# 3 From Dis-ease to Ease. My Journey to Health & Alignment
I was a sick kid. As a baby I had rubella (or so my Mum remembers!), and that illness, whatever it was, set me up for continuous health struggles. Glandular fever as a toddler apparently knocked me about, and through my schooling I was always tired, I suffered from malnutrition, was underweight, and had constant headaches. As a teenager I was regularly teased – told I was too skinny, too weak, and many other phrases and digs that seeped into my subconscious mind over the years. After school I left home and moved into the ‘big smoke’. I was working full-time, going to music festivals, and trying to be a typical 20-something-year-old living the dream. Unfortunately, my health issues were holding me back. I had migraines, fatigue so bad that walking up a flight of stairs was exhausting, and emotional – wow, was I emotional. I would cry at anything and everything, and I didn’t even know why! When asked what was wrong, I didn’t know. I looked sad ALL the time. I used alcohol and recreational drugs to get me in the mood to party and to escape myself. Getting drunk and high seemed like a good way to get a boost of energy and get out of my own skin.
I was trying to understand what was wrong with me though. I went to doctor after doctor, had test after test done, and the same thing every time – there is nothing medically wrong with you. One doctor told me “It is all in your head”. Now at the time, hearing that from a doctor was horrific, “In your head”, what an arsehole! One doctor I was referred to specialised in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and other out of the box health conditions. He took a heap of tests, asked a heap of questions, and diagnosed me with Fibromyalgia. Finally! A label! See, I told you, there IS something wrong with me. Over the next 10 or so years I experimented with different vitamins, minerals, potions, and diets, and in time my condition improved. Improved to a point that I didn’t feel like my health was ruling my life, but things would still pop up regularly.
Enter the narcissistic relationship (see blog 1). During the 7-8 year long relationship, my health dramatically deteriorated. My headaches were constant, my gut issues were out of control, I was irritable most of the time. I found that it was certainly easy to use my health to distract the pain I was suffering in the relationship. The worst the relationship got, the worse my health got, and the more excuses I could use to the outside world.
As I began my journey of self-awareness and healing after the end of that relationship, I came to a profound realisation: our mindset and emotions deeply influence our physical well-being. Reflecting on the doctor who once told me it was “all in my head,” I can now see the truth in those words — though at the time, they felt dismissive and painful. My health challenges weren’t purely physical; they were manifestations of unprocessed emotions, limiting beliefs, and patterns I had carried since childhood. These struggles became my way of staying small, avoiding fully showing up in life.
Breaking free from that narrative required deep inner work: shifting my mindset, releasing outdated patterns, and approaching my body with love and awareness. While this process was anything but easy, it led to a profound transformation in my physical health.
Looking back, I recognise how my early programming taught me to associate being unwell with attention—whether positive or negative. I used my health struggles as a shield, an excuse to avoid life’s demands and challenges. My subconscious mind, filled with self-doubt and limiting beliefs, was working overtime to keep me “safe” by holding me back. While I’m grateful for its efforts, it was time to rewrite the stories and beliefs that no longer served me. By addressing those root causes, I unlocked a path to healing and growth that I never thought possible.
I am not discounting the seriousness of health conditions, and I am only speaking from my experience and my perspective; and this is, from my journey over the past 8+ years, I can hand-on-my-heart say that I experience rare health issues, and when I do, they are mild. Yes, I will get a headache when I am dehydrated, or I’ve overexerted myself. Yes, I get fatigued when I don’t listen to my body to slow down and take a break. Yes, things happen when I don’t take stock and tune into my body, spirit, and mind to see what I need in that moment. Generally though, I feel vibrant, strong, and connected. By aligning my body, mind, and spirit, I’ve transformed my health and embraced a life of balance and ease. My story is a testament to the incredible healing power within us all when we step into alignment with our authentic selves. As I edge closer to 50, this is something that I am unbelievably grateful for.
This journey fuels my passion for supporting others. Whether through breathwork, coaching, or soul-centred guidance, my mission is to help others reconnect with their inner power and create a life of vitality, purpose, and freedom.